“Listen, I want you to know that you can cry without being awkward in front of me and be at ease about it but I’m sorry I don’t know what to say to console you,” I told my distraught friend once (seriously, I did).
Has anything of that sort happened with you too? Have you ever felt that incredibly awkward feeling when somebody praises you too much or shares their grievances with you or when somebody talks about serious shit going on in their life and you just fall short of words to respond with?
One thing’s for sure: You’re a damn good listener. Another thing that’s for sure is that you’re a person who lacks expression or maybe emotions. And if you’re that, you may relate to the points below:
You don’t know how to react when somebody shares a good news with you.
You know, like, when they land a job or when they have a baby or when they get hitched or something. You are happy from within (or maybe not even) but you cannot just bring that to your face somehow.
Likewise, you don’t know how to react to bad news either.
“I broke up with my girlfriend.” “Ohh… ermm… that’s pretty bad.”
“My granny passed away today.” “Ohh… ermm… that’s pretty bad.”
You become extremely awkward around kids (and people also, perhaps).
You don’t know how to make them smile. You cannot go all coochy-poo with them. Know what I mean?
Seeing a close one crying in front of you makes you feel sick in your stomach BECAUSE YOU CAN’T CONSOLE.
You don’t want to just be sitting over there doing nothing but you cannot impart consoling words either.
You just cannot bring yourself to give (forced) well wishes like “it will get better” when you can clearly see that the other person is in deep shit.
“I lost my job.” “Uhmm… Oh… OK [I guess]!” (You will not remember to say that they can always find another.)
You cannot become friendly with people in the first meet.
I mean, you would rather give a brief smile than say “HIIIIII” ecstatically.
You simply do not know how to react to compliments or proposals even.
“Hey, you look great today.” “Yeah, well [I know that, I made certain efforts] thanks!”
You cannot cry easily. You cannot laugh too much. And neither can you love too much. You basically cannot show excitement.
You cannot express emotions like love, joy, sorrow, and the suchlike over a certain limit (which is rather low, btw).
*Seeing a friend after AGES* She: “EEEEE! I’m so glad to finally see you!!” *She leans in to hug* You: …… Yeah, me too…..”
(Mind you, I’m not saying that you’re not happy to see your friend. All I am saying is that you cannot show too much of it. Perhaps not even up to the normal extent.)
But you know what? I think your kind of people (including me) are the balanced and the calculative and the practical ones (yeah, I can go on and on praising us, and you don’t even have to express how elated you are).